“I don’t even wanna put a title on it. I think it was more of a zone of limbo,” the 20-year-old pop star said.
“I texted Hailey, ‘Congratulations,’ and I really am happy for [their marriage],” Shawn told the magazine. “She’s still one of the f–king coolest people ever — she’s not just a beautiful person visually, but she’s one of the most beautiful hearts I’ve ever met. I think I’m an idiot to not, you know…But you can’t control your heart.”
Shawn went on to admit that rumors about his sexuality have put an immense amount of pressure on his personal life.
“In the back of my heart, I feel like I need to go be seen with someone — like a girl — in public, to prove to people that I’m not gay. Even though in my heart I know that it’s not a bad thing. There’s still a piece of me that thinks that. And I hate that side of me.”
Shawn reveal to Rolling Stone that he often found himself watching his own interviews and analyzing his voice and body language because of the rumors.
“I thought, ‘You f–king guys are so lucky I’m not actually gay and terrified of coming out,’” he explained. “That’s something that kills people. That’s how sensitive it is. Do you like the songs? Do you like me? Who cares if I’m gay?”