Ariana Grande Fights Back Tears While Accepting Billboard’s Woman of the Year Award – Watch Now!

Ariana Grande was emotionally moved as she accepted the award for Billboard’s Woman of the Year at the company’s Women in Music event on Thursday night (December 6) in New York City.

“This is really special. I want to say that I find it interesting that this has been one of the best years in my career and one of like the worst years in my life,” the 25-year-old “thank u, next” singer said struggling to hold back tears.

Ariana then got very candid about her very tumultuous year, which included the death of her ex-boyfriend Mac Miller and her short, intense romance with Pete Davidson.

“I’m just saying that because I feel like a lot of people would look at someone in my position right now I guess; Woman of the Year, an artist that could be at her peak, reaching her you know, whatever, and think, you know, ‘She’s really got her s–t together; she’s really on it; she has got it all,’” Ariana continued. “I do, but as far as my personal life goes I really have no idea what the f–k I am doing. So yeah, it’s been a very conflicting one,” she candidly shared. “I just want to say if you’re someone out there who has no idea what this next chapter is going to bring, you’re not alone in that.”

Watch Ariana‘s full acceptance speech above!